Friday October 31
Happy Halloween to everyone! I've been really neglectful of Revelation and I feel bad because I'm not suppose to do that. But, I've been really busy because for some reason everything started to weigh down on me at the same time and I was at the brink of collapsing.Seriously, I cried myself to sleep for a week because I was what...having an emotional breakdown too? I really don't know but I've gotten almost everything together except for what is going to happen tomorrow. SAT again. Second time taking it and I only studied like a tiny bit because I kept procrastinating and thinking about other things. But, I hope that I'll finish my essay this time and maybe do better on the Critical Reading section. I'm hoping that my vocabulary has expanded and also my knowledge of thinking critically...
Anyways, after tomorrow I'll be free for like, a few days maybe. Oh, and one important announcement. Amber, my friend/mother of my child and I have collaborated and made a new graphic site.
Both of us closed down our graphic site before school started because we both weren't feeling very awesome running a site by ourselves, we decided to merge together to make a new one. That way it'll be easier for both of us and we can continue to do what we like :)
Please give Tangled Etude a look around, hopefully you won't be disappointed by what we have so far.
TANGLED-ETUDE!!
Sunday October 05
No icon to display, now I feel kind of naked in front of you peering eyes. -hides self- But just updating to let anyone that reads this know I'm still alive and not dead yet even though I do feel like a zombie.I've actually managed to use the computer less now, it's been my goal since forever and I'm finally starting to inch closer to it. But it's mainly because of school, no duh. Senior year is a kicker. I got my class ranking thursday and am happy to say I did move up a few places...I think. I'm not actually sure what my rank was last year but oh well. I'm stressing out over APGov right now. I mean, so much work to do and there's only 24 hours a day and 10 hours of that is school work and the other 10 should be for sleeping. I said should be, not is...mind that.
I guess I shouldn't complain though, I watched a show called "2 Million Seconds" (I think that's the title) on ABC the other night and wow do we American's get it easy. Kids in China and India (not being stereotypical or anything but from what I saw in the show) have no social life because they study so much more than we do.
It made me feel like I should start working harder to I don't know...make it up to them? Even though I don't know why I should. I confuse myself and my actions...and my brain sometimes.
So yea, I'm getting sick thanks to my sister who coughed all over my face while sleeping two nights ago. Seriously...thank you for the itchy and painful feeling in my through and the runny nose.
QUESTION!
1. Should I start making layouts again?
Thursday September 18
Okay, as you've noticed the "new" site layout is up. I totally had everything typed up last Friday when I put up this layout except right before I saved my post, the power went off. So I'm introducing this very late. It's a very simple/abstract blog type of layout. Inspiration came from nonvideriDesigns. I would put the link up but I lost it.Alright, on to what has been going on. Well, as you all know (if you watch the news) Hurricane Ike hit last Saturday and I lost power the night before because it was very windy (yea, I do live in Texas, but that's all you'll get). I thought that the power would come back after the storm but, it didn't. So I was having a jolly good time with candles. Oh let me tell you, taking showers with only a candle as light source is a scary thing.
And since we had no electricity that meant we had no air conditioning. Surprisingly, it was very cool after Sunday so we only spent three nights suffering from the heat. And I think the only good thing that came out of this hurricane was, we got this whole week off from school.
But, that means we have to make it up...I think with our Christmas break.
Let me add another good thing, we got to get closer with a lot of our neighbors and reconnect with friends since basically all of them called to ask if we wanted to stay at their house.
I also thought it was funny since my side of the street had no power while the other side did. And just to throw in something, my neighbor's tree got blown down, it didn't land on the house thank God but missed narrowly by a few feet.
Okay, so enough about the after effects of the hurricane, onto today. It was my first day alone, without Christina's help, at the vet. I was prepared to just read since I thought there wouldn't be many patients. Well I was totally wrong. After I clocked in like 10 minutes later a group of people came in with a stray dog that they found at their temple (their Buddhist).
We put a muzzle on her since she wasn't very used to people and then...they wanted her spayed. Since it was my first day I was totally not prepared for the blood and the smell. While he was putting her to sleep I started feeling faint and my vision started blurring and I had to go sit outside. I know it was not because of the blood that made me queasy, it was the smell. She smelled horrible since they hadn't showered her yet and the room was crowded and barely felt any air condition.
I sat down for a few minutes and went back in except I didn't really do much since he only needed me to hand him some tools. Well I felt faint again so I went to sit down and went back in after few minutes. Did that about 2 more times and then he was finished.
Now my head hurts really bad and I'm thinking about being a vegetarian, like seriously.
Question:
1. Do you feel faint at the sight of blood?
Sunday September 07
Wow, I seriously need to open up Photoshop soon. I'm running out of icons to stick up already which means that I have not made enough when Amaranthine was opened. Damn me and my disability to make anything. But onto something happi...er? You know how I was talking about the vet and the interview that didn't go as smoothly as I wanted it to...well I got the job! I was so happy and shocked when my teacher told me I was like "SHUT UP! No way!" Except I didn't say that, instead my mouth dropped open in the ugliest of ways so she probably thinks I'm a little weird in the head, which I am.
So yea, I bought scrubs and am totally ready to learn everything I can about this.
Laura (the other girl that got hired) and I went in on Friday so he could talk to us and show us what we would be doing and learning. I saw a preserved heart of a Chihuahua with heart worms and it was nasty but really cool at the same time. Then we got to watch him test these two cats for worms. He just put some cream on a stick and stuck it up their butts then swirled it in some chemicals and oh my gosh it was just unbelievably cool.
I'm totally rambling but whatever. I'm just so excited. On the other hand, I still have to write my 500 word essay about my mom in Chinese which is kind of gay since my handwriting sucks and I only have 300 words. I love my mom but I don't know what to say.
Oh and I'm already failing math since I failed both quizzes and the test is on Tuesday which means I have tomorrow to catch up. Hopefully after Joy tutors me then I'll be alright. And AP Government, I finally got the schedule change but I'm like 3 chapters behind everyone and have to try to catch up by Thursday which is ridiculous and near impossible seeing that I'm a procrastinator and lazy. I'm just praying that I can at least finish my homework tonight. It's 10PM right now so I hope to be in bed by...11? Now...question time.
1. What is your dream job?
Tuesday September 02
I have come to another conclusion, or should I say, a revelation. Well, my revelation is that I'm not devoted enough to anything that I do or want to do so it makes me give up before I even finish or try. Wow, I feel so much better after getting that out of my brain...
Has anyone ever noticed how sarcastic I really am? It's really hard to tell over the internet when I'm actually not talking or raising my voice and all that lovely jazz we do with our voices to get other people to realize when we're annoyed or whatever. I mean, if I could or am compelled to (actually when I find my microphone) I think I'll post up a podcast one night of me ranting about something. Sounds like a fun and super awesome idea! Again...sarcasm does not really pop out, it seems like I"m a very optimistic person. But I'm not.
I'm a pessimistic person that is actually very angry at the world for no apparent reason. I just walk around frowning and glaring at people. It makes them intimidated that means I won't have to talk to them unless they work up enough courage and isn't afraid of getting their arm bitten off.
Again, more rambling.
Well, I've decided that if I do not get the job at the vet (which I'll find out tomorrow), then I think I'll drop out of co-op and take up Japanese and Dance (again). I've already taken Dance I which was very fun since I met a lot of my friends there. Now my mom is practically begging me to go back to dance since I haven't been excersizing for almost 3 years. And I wonder how I've not become overweight.
And since I haven't showered and my mom is now screaming in my ear, I'll finish up with a question.
1. Is deceiving ever justified?
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